Day five: November 27, 2011

Well DJ, today started in what I thought would be a good day. I did dishes and put a load of laundry in the dryer. I felt accomplished then the sadness hit. I didn't want to do anything today but I knew I was switching stores tomorrow and needed to get my desk from work and tie up some loose ends. Daddy slept all day and it made me mad because I have to make him get out of bed. I have to make him daily get out of bed. I don't have anyone to make me get out of bed. Your aunt and cousins helped me get my desk. I felt so alone it's scary. I just want him to be there for me like I am for him. I know we are both grieving because we miss you so much, but we have to lift each other up and I don't feel lifted up. It was just a bad day. There are good days, bad days and worse days. I'm worried about tomorrow baby. I go back to work and have to go to the funeral home to take care of your arrangements. I know tomorrow is going to be a worse day. I just know it. I'll let you know how it goes. As always, I love you DJ.