Day two: November 24, 2011

Man, today was a rough day. It would be your first thanksgiving. I am so very thankful for God blessing us with you. I am so very thankful for the 2 months we spent together. This morning, "Classico" played at 9 am just like every morning, and you being in heaven really hit me. I don't think your dad has ever seen me cry that hard. I feel like such a failure. I feel like it was my job to protect you and keep this from happening. I love you more than words can say. I love you more than words can say. It's now time for everyone to know... I love you so so so so much. I have a big hole in my heart and I know you are helping God watch over us. I know you love us too. You are forever in my heart. I had so many plans for you. Some so small as a thanksgiving picture. Some so grand as becoming an NFL quarterback. I just wanted you to have a full and blessed life. I love you so much it hurts. I'm just taking it one day at a time and I know I will heal but I will never forget. I love you with all my heart and soul. I love you DJ.